Cannabis And Anxiety Panic Attacks

Today I got up at 5 am because I had bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. It is that feeling I always get when I know my landlord is coming by.  I managed to go outside in the backyard and record a Wake And Bake Nature Smoke Session  where I talked about all of the anxiety I feel just from the anticipation of whether or not he is going to show up to finish painting the house that I am renting. 

If you haven't seen the shows where I talk about the trials and tribulations of renting a house from a landlord who can't hear you unless you yell at him, complains about things that make no sense, and goes out on a rage against the plants  in the yard because he still has anger issues from past events that took place here at this house.

The main event was when he had the plumber over here to fix the water main but that was not the responsibility of the plumber to fix it was for the sewage district to take care of. And they do this service for free. So I am thinking that my landlord was angry because he may or may not have spent money paying the plumbers. He and his wife felt the need to tell how much it was costing them to get the plumbing fixed.  I don't remember the exact number but it was over $1000. 

I was really tired of the whole obsession over the grass not being green here.  Almost everyone in our neighborhood's grass is dry as straw.  And it has been over 100 degrees for the past 2 days.  The last time the landlord was here to do landscaping he ended up mowing over the sprinkler system.  Now we are back to watering the line with a regular old timey sprinkler.  They had installed a timed sprinkler system I think last year.  Now it is broken.  My husband knows how to fix it and the repair is a bit over $1.50  .So no huge loss as far as money there.

In my morning wake and bake session I talked about how it is for me to be extremely sensitive.  And I discussed how I found out the true meaning of the word empath. I feel that so many people use this word and are not truly aware of what it means to be an empath. The very first time I heard that word I was watching Star Trek The Next Generation back when I was in my teens years.  Deana Troy was the alien being on the ship that counseled  people within the crew of The Starship Enterprise. She was introduced as being an empath.  Some may say she served no true purpose aboard the ship until she started wearing the starfleet uniform.  I disagree.


I am so sensitive to my landlord plight in life so that is why it is easy for me to take the high road on this whole ordeal.   Adding fire to a flame can cause severe burns and I know about severe burns. 

We are all being tested everyday.  I feel as though I am becoming more and more connected to my mission here on this planet and because of this feeling I have been able to push through the panic and anxiety I feel about living here to make my dreams become a reality

Brightest Blessings To You All

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