Cannabis Anxiety PTSD The Landlord

Today I thought was going to be a calm ordinary day.  I went outside in my backyard at about 6:30 am to prepare for my show that I like to do in the mornings lately.  It is called Wake And Bake Nature Smoke Session.  I was feeling really relaxed and at peace within my world all throughout recording this show for today.

After I finished recording the show I gathered up my things to bring back in to the house when I noticed by looking through the back gate that my landlord was here and has begun painting on the house.  All of a sudden I  was struck with panic.  I didn't think that he would be here until Tuesday.  I told him what days my husband has off.  So now he is here on my husband's day off.

We planned a shopping trip to get summer clothes for my son.  I have no idea how long this man will be here.  One thing is for sure is that it is much cooler today than it has been for the past week.  We experienced a severe heat wave here in sunny California.  Temperatures reached highs of 112 degrees.  And all the while through the heat my landlord has been showing up to paint the house.  At least on the really hot days he got here about 6:30 or 7 am so that he wouldn't have to endure such intense heat.

Hopefully he we leave at a decent time like say before noon.  But because the weather is cooler this may not be the case. I refuse to leave where I have all of my belongings while he is here painting this house.  I had this dream that I don't want to tell my son or my husband so as not to worry them.  I had a dream that my landlord was trying to sell his home on ebay.  I went out into the front yard and noticed that there were people looking at the house through their car.  

I don't feel as though this should cause me to panic but it does.  Whenever the landlord comes by I think of that dream.  There is a part of me that is not convinced that this is a precognitive dream.  The reason why I say this is because years ago when me, my husband, and son were renting a house downtown we had a landlord who was quite similar in how he communicated with his tenants.  This guy that we rented from  all these years ago put the house we lived in up for sale on ebay without telling us. 

It was very humiliating at the time to find this out.  There are so many people out there that have a nice income and own several homes.  Some of these people decide to rent to out these homes in order to pay for the mortgage on these extra homes or to just generate an extra income.  When it is all said and done there is no way that one person can care for more than one home all by their lonesome without beating the body to the ground.  That is what my landlord is doing. And I have spent way more time being concerned about this matter than I want to be.  I am s Mother, I am a Wife,  I am an Artist.  I am not a plumber or a landscaper.  And these are all things that I have been learning more about through living with the ordeals, trials and tribulations that occur here.

If my current landlord would have just hired someone to paint the house for him the job could have been done within a day or two.  Yet he is into penny pinching to the extreme even if it costs him his health. My husband is starting to panic too. And now today my landlord being here disrupts our family time.  My husband works Tuesday thru Saturday. He has Sundays and Mondays off.  The last thing he wants to here is the landlord making scraping noises and walking around all fast like he's pissed off all of the time.

This energy that he projects is truly toxic and I don't think that he even realizes what energy he is emitting. It is sad!    Yet at the same time I am concentrating on staying focused on what I know I am suppose to be doing here.  There are opportunities that come my way when I am not filled with so much anxiety.


So what do I do to get rid of this intense anxiety while my landlord is hanging around painting the entire house?  When the landlord is here I play some relaxing chants which you can find on  you tube.  My favorite go to has been DHYAANGURU DR. NIPUN AGGARWAL.  His youtube page has various types of chants and meditations to help rid your environment of toxic energies.  Energy is real.  And it can be intense or passive.  Or in between.  I like to dispel negative energy in any way that I can.  I smoke some hashish and flower.  I take my cannabis tincture too. 


That is how intense situations like this can get when you have anxiety, and PTSD.  I have found that a lot of people are saying that they have PTSD and don't  even know what it truly means.  I was diagnosed with PTSD about  2 or 3 yrs ago.  I read about it before going to a psychologist to get diagnosed.  I knew that is what I had before the psychologist prescribed me zoloft and told me I have PTSD.   I never took the zoloft and I don't think that taking that synthetic drug would have been better than smoking a joint of some of the strongest Indica strain that I have.


I believe in natural plant healing.  I don't believe in chemicals to treat conditions that have to healed and not just have a band aid put on them.



Thank you for stopping by my humble abode to hear how I deal with daily events in my life that can be downright stressful and truly trying of the patience.

Cannabis is a natural medicine and I am happy with how she has helped me in very challenging times here on planet Earth.

Cannabis Magazines Wake And Bake

Hello if you don't know who I am well I am about to tell you.  My name is Trina and I am a Medical Cannabis Patient .  I partake of Cannabis on a regular basis for PTSD, Arthritis in both of my knees and ankles , social anxiety and a few other conditions I mention on my channel The Productive Cannabis Connoisseur.

I like to let people know they main reasons why I partake of this magickal herb because otherwise people just assume that I am a recreational smoker.   I have been recently doing some Wake And Bake Nature Smoke Sessions early in the morning.  And while doing some of these smoke session shows I have been reading articles from some really cool Cannabis magazines.

One of the articles that I read on today's show was talking about how hemp can replace fossil fuels.  We can be done with gasoline altogether.

The other article discussed how a brave woman opened up a dispensary to raise money to help out the senior citizen community in the LGBTQ community.  That is good news to know that the money generated from sales of Cannabis are going to worthy causes.


I also read an article from the magazine called Dope Magazine about Cannabinoids And The Nervous System.  Very interesting how cannabis works on the brain and the body. 

I have been greatly enjoying creating these morning Wake And Bake Nature Smoke Sessions.  On today's show I smoke some Lavender Kush out of a  bong.

Thank you for being so supportive of the Cannabis Community and our right to medicate with a natural plant called Cannabis.  Thank you for supporting the youtube channel  The Productive Cannabis Connoisseur.

I feel blessed and thankful everyday that I have Cannabis as my alternative form of medicine to help me heal and to keep a level state of mind.

Brightest Blessings To You All


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Black Women Racial Profiling Cannabis

Many are under the assumption that it is only black men or gay me that are discriminated against in the world well this is so untrue.  Black women have a lot of struggles as well.  We are prosecuted very harshly within the judicial system as well.  It just seems as though the media has the hot spots that they like to focus on.  Black woman have a struggle here on Earth as well as Black men and gay men.  What is that struggle you may ask.  The struggle is individual for each Black Woman.

When we walk outside of our homes we are judged.  We are expected to talk a certain way to carry ourselves according to all of the stereotypes that exist in this world.  I refuse to respond to this request.  The other day a person made a comment on one of my videos that seemed to insinuate that I was clueless as to the plight of the black man and the gay man.  Buddy you have no idea.  I saw my dad struggle not to have a white man be in control of him when I was growing up.  I can remember when he worked at this phone company he said really loud one day " I am not going to let some cracker white person tell me how to work or to be my supervisor.  He illustrated how the world treated black me.

I saw one of my brothers struggle so hard to get a job out here in sunny California "the land of opportunity."

I am not a black man or a gay man.  I will never truly understand their plight unless I am either a black man or a gay man.  I do feel sympathy for them both.  I just wish that people can see that the same thing that is going on as far as abusive behavior towards black men and gay me is happening to black women as well.  We are not as viable of an option in the eye of major corporations when it comes to career opportunities unless we straighten the crap out of our hair, wear a wig, or wear braided extensions.

In the Cannabis Community if you are a black woman, have freeform dreadlocks, and have a opinion about the world and  how you want to make positive change in the world through educating those who are wanting to learn about the benefits of Cannabis you are not really taken that seriously.  I am not looking to get tons of followers on my The Productive Cannabis Connoisseur channel. What I am looking to accomplish by having this channel accessible is to provide information about Cannabis that not everyone knows about.

I totally know what it is like to be harassed and hated just because of the color of my skin and my  freeform dreadlocks.  I just wish that people could learn to not make assumptions about a person before they really get a chance to know that person.

I have no ill will against the person who left that comment.  I think that we are all living in a world of our own.  Our perceptions of the world are based on our environment, our parents who raised us or didn't raise us.  The friends we hang out with, or if we are a more solitary person we get influenced more so by nature and our natural instincts about this planet.

I feel that Cannabis is helping people open up and share their own unique perspective about the world .

I hope that Cannabis can do the same for you if you choose to partake of the medicinal plant that is so filled with love.

Brightest Blessings Beautiful Souls

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Can Cannabis Wake You Up

The title of the blog post can be taken in many ways I suppose.  The thought of Cannabis waking someone perhaps sounds quite illogical to a person who has not much experience with this wonderfully medicinal plant.  Some say that when they smoke Sativa it makes them feel more awake and alert. Some say that Indica makes them tired and couch locked.    Some even say that Cannabis makes them feel awake and alert to the realities of life.  And that is where I am going with today's blog post.

I feel as though there are many people out there in this world that are going to try Cannabis for the first time and be totally awakened to the helping hand we desperately need to lend to our Mother Earth.  When your mind is relaxed you can see the world for what it really is.  You can truly see each intention of each and every soul you come in contact with.  It is my experience that if I partake in primarily Indica strain or Indica dominant hybrid strains, I am in a state of mind where I am able to move through this world observing the atrocities yet not fully absorbing all of the pain and struggle.

Instead of absorbing the pain of others I practice listening and letting a person have their own feelings.  I am empathic and that means that I can easily feel like I am living another person's life when I am around that person.  I can pick up on emotions, whether toxic or clear from impurities. So Cannabis also aids me in staying neutral in times of confrontations and conflicts that may arise from so many disagreements that people engage themselves in within a given day.  I see the allure and attraction to becoming a hermit. I feel that need to reach out for that type of solitude.  Yet I feel that Cannabis helps those who cannot escape to a temple or meditation retreat.

The first inhale and exhale of the day makes me know that I am getting in touch with the Divine.  I am connected to a supremely elevated plant. The Ancient Ones honored Cannabis eons ago.  Now we are getting back to that place in our hearts where we know that this planet need to be saved desperately.  We are all clinging to the meaning of life or our individual interpretation of the meaning of life.  It is hard to see what you life purpose is when you are bogged down with so much strife and oppression.  We are strong like a weed that is actually a medicinal herb that breaks through the soil with great strength and force. We are taking back our power.


What power is that you may ask.  It is the power to believe in ourselves.  It is the power to be able to walk out in nature and harvest Cannabis as medicine for our friends and family.  We are in control and balanced when we have the proper amount Cannabis within our system.  If not we are deficient.  Some are more deficient than others.  So if you have never tried Cannabis and you are experiencing all sorts of health problems you could research this plant more and see that Cannabis could quite possibly alleviate most or all of the symptoms you are experiencing now from whatever ailment you struggle with on a daily and nightly basis.


The Government for many years has suppressed the Cannabis plants.  It all started when the powers that be started smashing the weak down to the ground and creating class systems.  Separation was the key for so long on this planet.  That dominating control force was working over time.  Yet we cannabis partakers , us medicine women and men have been a powerful force in this world most obviously.  You can see the awakening occurring with people from the positive vibration that the Cannabis plant is radiating out into the world.


Are you awake to the fact that there are more than a dozen ailments that Cannabis can help cure and heal?  Are you awake to the fact that it is your right  as someone who walks on this planet Earth to partake of the healing herbs Mother Earth provides us.? Still so many are asleep in their waking world.  They would rather take a pill than see if there is a more natural alternative to treating whatever illness.   It is a sad reality. It is sad because so many of our loved ones have died .  And I just think that if Cannabis was legal before some of these beloved souls departing from this Earthly plane there is that possibility that they may have survived longer with a better quality of life.


I wish and hope for all of you out there to be awakened to the fact that Cannabis is a plant that is healing the planet and she can help heal you if you want her to.


Brightest Blessings To You All

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Cannabis And Anxiety Renting Meditation

Today I look at the landlord of the house that I am renting and feel so much anxiety and stress.  I fear that he will get so mad at us that he will kick us out on the street.  I start to get these panicky and frightening thoughts whenever he comes around with his very dark energy.  It is angry energy.  It is anger that has resulted from years of heart break, broken promises, dreams shattered, and no one to listen and truly understand.  Well at least that is what I got from him whenever he has been coming by to do maintenance on the house.

These events happening in my life regarding the landlord has preoccupied more of my  time than I care to have it.  I have been partaking in Cannabis to help the anxiety and panic subside.  And Cannabis has been therapeutic in this somewhat traumatizing experience.  What pisses me off the most is that my husband says that he is really stressed about the landlord coming over and complaining about so many things about this house.  Here's why I am pissed off by my husband saying this.  It is because he is not here to directly feel the impact of angry emotions that the landlord throws my way in a more aggressive than passive way.  

But within reflecting outside in nature after the landlord leaves I am able to partake in my herb without fear of judgement.  And when out sit outside in nature I think about why I am so pissed off. I am glad that my husband is not around when the landlord is here because he has enough to handle going to work for a job that doesn't pay him what he is worth.  Although the other day his boss talked about wanting to possibly give him a raise.  It's about damn time.  He is been working there for ages.

So anyone who wants to know how I manage my anxiety and panic attacks here is what I do:

1. I go outside.

2. I sit in a very comfortable chair or in the grass with my back against a tree, or even lie in the grass with my head back and legs touching the Earth.

3.  I close my eyes and ask for assistance from ArchAngel Michael, My Ancestors, My Spirit Guides, My Guardian Angels and all of the positive beings that are here on Earth with me to help me to remember my spiritual path.

4.  Then I partake in some Cannabis and allow the stress anxiety to flow out of my body and into the Earth.

5.  I then close my eyes and visualize that the fear is passing through my body and then is absorbed by the Earth.

6.  The Earth then neutralizes that negative fear energy and then evaporates it.

That is just a little creative imagination visualization practice that I do if my panic attacks come on too strong for me to handle by merely smoking Cannabis.  I am not saying that is will work for everybody but it is worth a try if you are really suffering.

Thank you for stopping by my humble abode for some information about Cannabis and Anxiety that you can share with your friends and family.

Brightest Blessings To You All

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Cannabis And The Watchful Eye

Whenever I go outside to partake in my herbal medicine, better known as Cannabis,  I feel like I am honoring my ancestors that came before me.  My ancestors most likely partook in this miraculously healing herb on a daily and nightly basis. So much history has been destroyed about the ancient civilizations and what type of plant life they have been ingesting for ages. 

The good news is we are working hard to recover this lost knowledge.  We are not just going to sites like archeologist searching for that rare fossil.  We are traveling there through thought.  When I sit outside and think about these ancient civilizations  while partaking in Cannabis I notice these images that I get within my mind .  Sometimes I see pyramids, and sometimes I see ancient people living the way I want live as.

How is it that I want to live you may ask.  I want live on my own land , planting as much Cannabis as I want in order to provide medicine for free or low cost.  I want to grow acres of vegetables to provide food to the homeless.  I want to  build tree homes on my property in order to provide homes for those who don't have shelter and need healing.  I feel as though all of these ideas are going to happen. 

I am a very patient person and I have been waiting all of these years for Cannabis become more easily accessible to those who truly can feel the benefits of the beautiful plant.  I am watching to see what happens next within the Cannabis industry.  Yet at the same time I have this thing called precognition where I can see events happen before they do.  Has to do with actually being someone who partakes of Cannabis on a regular basis for PTSD, Arthritis in both of my knees and ankles, social anxiety, GERD,  and Dyslexia.

I am that watchful eye.  My eyes are watching to see how far the government will go to control people when it comes to their right to choose what medicine works best for whatever illness they are suffering from.


Thank you for stopping by my humble abode here to talk about all things Cannabis

Brightest Blessings,  Trina

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Cannabis And Anxiety Panic Attacks

Today I got up at 5 am because I had bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. It is that feeling I always get when I know my landlord is coming by.  I managed to go outside in the backyard and record a Wake And Bake Nature Smoke Session  where I talked about all of the anxiety I feel just from the anticipation of whether or not he is going to show up to finish painting the house that I am renting. 

If you haven't seen the shows where I talk about the trials and tribulations of renting a house from a landlord who can't hear you unless you yell at him, complains about things that make no sense, and goes out on a rage against the plants  in the yard because he still has anger issues from past events that took place here at this house.

The main event was when he had the plumber over here to fix the water main but that was not the responsibility of the plumber to fix it was for the sewage district to take care of. And they do this service for free. So I am thinking that my landlord was angry because he may or may not have spent money paying the plumbers. He and his wife felt the need to tell how much it was costing them to get the plumbing fixed.  I don't remember the exact number but it was over $1000. 

I was really tired of the whole obsession over the grass not being green here.  Almost everyone in our neighborhood's grass is dry as straw.  And it has been over 100 degrees for the past 2 days.  The last time the landlord was here to do landscaping he ended up mowing over the sprinkler system.  Now we are back to watering the line with a regular old timey sprinkler.  They had installed a timed sprinkler system I think last year.  Now it is broken.  My husband knows how to fix it and the repair is a bit over $1.50  .So no huge loss as far as money there.

In my morning wake and bake session I talked about how it is for me to be extremely sensitive.  And I discussed how I found out the true meaning of the word empath. I feel that so many people use this word and are not truly aware of what it means to be an empath. The very first time I heard that word I was watching Star Trek The Next Generation back when I was in my teens years.  Deana Troy was the alien being on the ship that counseled  people within the crew of The Starship Enterprise. She was introduced as being an empath.  Some may say she served no true purpose aboard the ship until she started wearing the starfleet uniform.  I disagree.


I am so sensitive to my landlord plight in life so that is why it is easy for me to take the high road on this whole ordeal.   Adding fire to a flame can cause severe burns and I know about severe burns. 

We are all being tested everyday.  I feel as though I am becoming more and more connected to my mission here on this planet and because of this feeling I have been able to push through the panic and anxiety I feel about living here to make my dreams become a reality

Brightest Blessings To You All

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Cannabis And Sex Life

Some people take viagra.  Some people use tools and toys.  I think that the more relaxed you are the more receptive you will be to your partners needs and wants and vice versa.  People get so hung up on thinking whether or not you look attractive enough to your lover. 

When I partake of Cannabis I feel such a deep love for myself that I can't help but feel a deep love, passion, and attraction to my partner.


Cannabis is freaking fantastic!!!

Daily High Club Rant

So I ordered the $12.00 Connoisseur deal from Daily High Club, formerly known as Dollar High Club.  I opened up on my youtube channel called The Productive Cannabis Connoisseur  and found out that I had 3 missing items.  I did not get angry right away.  What I did was after I made the video talking and showing my viewers that I had 3 missing items  I emailed Daily High Club.

Long story short I emailed them a total of 3 times and the only response that I received was a computer generated response pretty much letting me know that my email is in the que of possibly 100's of other emails.

I recently made a video on my youtube channel( The Productive Cannabis Connoisseur) talking about my frustration and disappointment with a company that is suppose to be reputable within the Cannabis community.

I just wanted to try this deal so that I could find different types of rolling papers mainly. And to my dismay I open up a package that has 3 items missing from the list.

I unsubscribed  and I am thinking that maybe because this was only a $12.00 deal they didn't think it was worth taking the time to contact me, apologize and then remedy the situation by sending me the items that were missing and possibly a free gift for the inconvenience.

I said my peace now I'm out and back to staying Irie and at one with Mother Earth


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I Love Cannabis Because

I love Cannabis because this beautiful plant has brought so much relief to millions maybe even billions of people on this planet who are suffering day after with debilating dis-eases in the body, mind and soul.

I love Cannabis because when I am having a stressed out day I can go outside in my backyard and smoke a joint, toke on the bong, or my hash pipe and meditate on the days events. 

I love Cannabis because it has made me even more empathic than I already was .  Because I am very in touch with how those I love are feeling I am better able to help them in their time of need.

I love Cannabis because growing this plant helps to clean up the toxins and poisons that the Government has been spraying on us poor citizen of Northern California.

I love Cannabis because it helps to stop my anxiety attacks that I can get due to be diagnosed as having PTSD, and social anxiety.

I like Cannabis because when I have a hard time stilling my thoughts at night I can slip away in front of my altar with a candle lit and smoke some very intensely strong and mind blowing Indica.  I meditate and connect with my higher self.  I ask for what I want to see in my world and take these thought into the dream world thanks to Mother Cannabis.

 

Wake And Bake Smoke Session In Nature

I really have been enjoying Wake and Bake Mother Earth Smoke Sessions.  So many people in this world are suffering and feeling miserable every day because they do not have access to Cannabis.  Cannabis is a plant that can be very healthy and beneficial to one's immune system.  Cannabis can help clean up the environment and has been said to help eliminate radiation if enough plants are grown.

I have been uploading these shows onto my The Productive Cannabis Connoisseur Youtube Channel.

So please do drop by for a friendly smoke session, a bit of deep conversation, and some tea.

Brightest Blessings,

Trina

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