No amount of Cannabis can cut the tension between me and my husband. My brother in laws funeral is coming soon. I won't be going because my mother in law hates my guts.
And right now I know my husband stays with out of obligation and out of love. I am dealing with a man that does not find me sexually attractive and who would rather bury his face in his phone all the time than to ask how my day was or even talk about his day.
At night it is like I am in bed with a roommate. Or like I am not in bed at all as far as my husband is concerned. He is busy pleasing himself , if you know what I mean. And he's doing this every night when I am trying to sleep.
Ear plugs are not enough. I need to get financially independent so that I can get out of this marriage to someone who sees me as an obligation and not as the he loves and trusts. My menopause body and mind is no longer attractive.
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