He Left Me To Grieve Allone

 Yesterday after my husband got off from work he went straight to band practice for a band he just joined. All of this would sound normal if you leave out the fact that our cat Bart died only 5 days ago.

Me and My son are just getting along with having to process this sadness in our own way. I went to take a nap yesterday after working for hours on a storybook for a doll that captures the feeling of what's going on in the world. I laid down at 6 pm and woke up at 1 am.

It is now 2 am and I cannot go back to sleep. I woke up crying and missing my sweet little black maine coon cat. I loved him dearly. He was the only one who loved unconditionally never telling me to fuck off.

I will be working on art intensely to not just fall apart. I won't be able to have another cat in my life for a long time. The process of grieving Bart's passing will be long and painful.

I saw a sign that Bart is with me the other day while making a video at the local park.

No One To Mourn With

 I am so sad because I do not have anyone in my household to share tje memories of my beloved cat Bart who passed away about 5 days ago. I am still in shock of how quickly it all happened.

My husband just told me before leaving for work that he was going to jam with guys in his new band after work. Leaving me here all alone to mourn the loss of my cat.

I am so sick and tired mourning the loss of cats that have come into my life all by myself

I know it is healthy to cry about the loss of my best friend. So why can't the person that is suppose to be my partner in life be here instead at some stupid band practice?

God dammit I miss Bart!!!

My Cat Bart Died

 My cat Bart died 3 days ago. He was a black maine coon cat. He had a beautiful bushy tail like a racoon. I can barely write because I busting out in tears again.

I miss him so much. He treated me better than any human ever has in mu whole entire life.

I LOVE YOU BART !!!